So that's what it is

I've been feeling out of sorts for a while, I was unhappy at times I should have been content and I couldn't really put a finger on why. Sure there are the usual stresses of life to contend with but this was something else, I pondered it over the weekend and I think I've finally got it figured out.
My problem is this, I get testy with Styles on the weekends, I try to give him his space and let him relax, enjoy his day's off, after all he works every day all week long, I don't work, I'm at home while he is in the office being a good provider for us, but I realized I don't get any day's off.
I'm not talking about the barn chores, that is my hobby and I choose the commitment of spending 2+ hours out there every day, I accept that in order to have my equines I must give up sleeping in and long evenings uninterrupted. I talking about the fact that even if I get somebody to take care of the horses I still don't get a day off, there is always meals to cook, dishes to do, house work that needs doing, the dog and cat's to care for, everyday things that I do all week and must still do on the weekend. So while Styles has the day to play video games, surf the web and basically be at ease, my weekends are no different than my weekdays other than him being home, trips to town, etc. I am not saying he is no help around the house, he does pitch in but it is often only with much reminding, and then waiting for it to get done.
I know I choose this role, I choose being a homemaker rather than having a career, but I can't help but realize that if I [i]did[/i] have a job this place would be trashed 24/7, it's hard keeping a nice home when only one person in the home cares about how it looks, it's hard feeling like a mom when I have no children...